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Friday, February 4, 2011
Saturday, May 3, 2008
pressing on
I feel like no matter how much progress i make there are incredibly, tremendous setbacks.
No matter how much i figure out, no matter how many epiphany's, or even how many things my heart can dream up... it's never enough for the constant upheaval that rocks my world.
No matter how much i figure out, no matter how many epiphany's, or even how many things my heart can dream up... it's never enough for the constant upheaval that rocks my world.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
i want to graduate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it'll happen someday...
so everyone that's interested in student council make sure to attend an interest meeting today or tomorrow at 12, 1, 5, or 6 either day in room 252 in the student center!!
so everyone that's interested in student council make sure to attend an interest meeting today or tomorrow at 12, 1, 5, or 6 either day in room 252 in the student center!!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Got nothing to say anymore
There's nothing new
It's all been done before
Not looking to settle the score
So please let me be
Thought I'd be the one you'd adore
I always thought
I would be so much more
Want something that I can't afford
So please let me be
Please let me be
This is the end of a really sad story
But don't feel bad for me
I started out alone
And in the end that's where I'll be
Like the star of a really sad story
You don't live happily
I started out alone
And in the end that's where I'll be
-----Plain White T’s----
So the day…
It was decided that today would be spent breathing.
No church today as a crisis happened around 5:30 this morning… after the crisis was averted?
I laid face down in my yummy comfy bed BREATHING
Time to balance the check book and even more scarily the debit card… after the bookwork?
I laid face up on the floor BREATHING
The amazing roommate wanted “pie shaped brownies” so on to “pie shaped brownies” then some breathing and thought. Deep thought… results of the deep thinking? pie shaped brownies are way easier than figuring out life... stick with the baking...
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
ch...ch...ch...changes.....
so.... as of this week i am no longer a professional communication student but I belong to the theatre department at the school of comm and arts.... IT HAPPENED SOOO FAST... talk about not having time to breathe. my biggest reason for switching was the comm and arts school only has on campus classes. i am not very successful in online classes and i figure as long as i moved to Virginia i may as well make use of my time... BAD NEWS... i accepted a new ADP which means you guys are going to be seeing me for a long time to come :)
Sunday, July 29, 2007
some random thoughts in lyrics
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
'Til I find somebody new
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
'Til I find somebody new
Friday, July 27, 2007
very much back
hello everyone.
I'm very much back and look forward to rejoining the land of the living :)
my stint in nowhere land was altogether not fun and i hope very much to never visit again.
also I decided it would be particularly cool of me to drop off the face of the earth for the month of June. So what was I really doing?
Maybe I was skiing in the arctic and wrastling polar bears... I could have been living it up poolside in Hollywood w/ my own personal Cabana boy...Or you could make up some fun and exciting story and insert ________ (there) ... It's really up to you. At any rate it's fabulous to be back...
:)
See you around.
I'm very much back and look forward to rejoining the land of the living :)
my stint in nowhere land was altogether not fun and i hope very much to never visit again.
also I decided it would be particularly cool of me to drop off the face of the earth for the month of June. So what was I really doing?
Maybe I was skiing in the arctic and wrastling polar bears... I could have been living it up poolside in Hollywood w/ my own personal Cabana boy...Or you could make up some fun and exciting story and insert ________ (there) ... It's really up to you. At any rate it's fabulous to be back...
:)
See you around.
Friday, May 25, 2007
on a day like today. (more about me than you want to know)
----2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason---
today i found myself looking back at the culmination of life thus far. if this were it, if today were my day of completion would i be ready? what have i learned? have i made an impact whatsoever? these thoughts lead me into a time of reflection, decision, and hope. i have experienced an incredible amount of things up until this point. my life has been rich with opportunity and blessing.
i grew up loved. loved by my immediate family UNCONDITIONALLY. no matter what happens, no matter how many mistakes i make, things i don't mean to say or do, my parents and my brothers and sisters loved me without faltering. i have made so many mistakes, i mean some real bungles. however there was never a time where they weren't there. in my family we have this thing my dad used to say. he worked away for most of my life, but he told us no matter where he was or what he was doing if we needed him he'd be there. he would "drag up" and come to our aid. i have no doubt in my mind of this, my father's unconditional love. he is gone now, and my family walks on in this principle. family means no matter what, you are there. family are the people you would want beside you in a fight or trying circumstance. family is love. i am blessed because i have love.
i had incredible friends growing up, we grew up in Coudersport Pennsylvania (aka Tiny Town, USA). my first experience of the outside world other than vacationing was college, I was dual enrolled and attended summer semester @ Yale University. To go from the mountains to the city was an experience I will never forget. it was that first time on my own where "i" was sculpted. i was 16 and grown in ways most adults were, not to say i didn't hold immaturity, i still do, but when you are in college and there is no one but you and Jesus to work out your messes you grow up fast. after that returning to high school was almost impossible. i had tasted life and didn't know how to go back to the previous "high school" existence. i skipped out my senior year and was gone. at that point in my life things were shaky. i was in a great time of transition and didn't know much of anything, enter Bible School into the picture. i went to school in rocky mount, virginia and it was there i found myself IN GOD. when i was 17 i left Bible school and moved to flint, michigan. i lived with a dear pastor and his family and then with incredible people who became my second family. i made a life for myself learning and growing. i applied to U of M, received admission, was going to get engaged to an amazing man of God and was well on my way to a future.
friday November 7th, 2003 i got the call that changed my life. my dad, my best friend in the entire world, had cancer. cancer is a peculiar thing... some people find out they have cancer and live for years, some people a year, God heals some people.... with cancer you just never know how much time. i got 69 days with my dad, from the day he was diagnosed till the day he died. 69 of the longest and shortest days of my life. i immediately returned to Pennsylvania to be my father's primary care giver. We didn't know what this walk would be like, I out of all the siblings had the most dispensable life, i hadn't begun school yet and my life would wait. So i pressed pause with all of my heart and went to be by my fathers side. my mother had to continue working for as long as possible to keep insurance before she could take a leave. she never got the time to take it. it was over before the fight had even begun. i daily watched my father die and for a long time i couldn't recover. i shut down for what seemed like a long time. after that everything went. The man i was going to spend my life fell for someone else in those 69 days. my life at that point seemed over.
after i returned to michigan it wasn't the same. i came back to pennsylvania and lost months. finally i awoke in august of 2004. i packed the car and drove to lakeland, fl. Southeastern University. i had applied for early admission in high school and gotten accepted. i called and asked if my acceptance was still on file. they said yes, i packed the car. i was a transfer student, but transferred no credits in, i scrapped life before that, and began a fresh start. i successfully completed my freshman year. it was in this time i found newness of life. it was an awakening. new friends. fresh air... BREATHING... my second semester i began as a LINC (leader in community, asst. RA) Sophomore year continued in student development and life, and had a genuine life, i was owned by the comm dept, did acting, PR/journalism, English, and Pre-law.... life was full and good :) around thanksgiving i was sitting in chapel looking at the ceiling. The Lord said I wouldn't be there next semester. it was a peculiar thing to hear, however i knew it was Jesus. I began frantically looking for a school, i knew i wanted east coast, and Christian, past that i was clueless. i called my mom to tell her it was time to move again and she was disheartened. she wanted me to just stay somewhere for longer than a year, to finish something. it wasn't that i didn't want to finish, i just knew God said i wouldn't be there next semester. she asked me to be obedient to her, and just to stay and finish sophomore year. i told her against what i knew was right, "okay". i had to be obedient though over Christmas break i had applied to a school called Regent University. I prayed and left it in God's hands. January rolled around, this first week of classes began, and i ended up in the hospital. looong story short. I was moved back to Pennsylvania with my belongings by the first week of February. I landed a rare neurological disorder called cluster headaches. doesn't sound scary, but it is. so i ended up not being scrapping the semester trying to get the disorder under control. i received my acceptance to regent, i began taking online classes and told my mom and packed the car again. this time it was a year ago to virginia beach and regent university.in the fall i began on campus and this brings us up to about now.
the things that have unfolded during the past year have been good, and bad, and inbetween. they have been God. i have lost relationships, gained them and am yet again at a time of transition. one week from today i am moving, but this time only to an apartment a little further away from my current residence. i am still breathing. during the past year i have come to terms with a lot. i have learned much about the person i am and the person i am growing to be. i went through the year having a person, having a best friend, someone that was more like a sister than anything, and have lost them. i wish the world understood unconditional love.... i wish we saved the judging for God... i wish when someone said they loved you, they would mean it... i wish we would consider our words more carefully... i wish people understood communication and how necessary it is. this wishing leaves me with hope. hope for the future, cultivating relationship in my home life, at school. cultivating the love of Christ and giving it to the world. thinking about the truly important things.
can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason---
today i found myself looking back at the culmination of life thus far. if this were it, if today were my day of completion would i be ready? what have i learned? have i made an impact whatsoever? these thoughts lead me into a time of reflection, decision, and hope. i have experienced an incredible amount of things up until this point. my life has been rich with opportunity and blessing.
i grew up loved. loved by my immediate family UNCONDITIONALLY. no matter what happens, no matter how many mistakes i make, things i don't mean to say or do, my parents and my brothers and sisters loved me without faltering. i have made so many mistakes, i mean some real bungles. however there was never a time where they weren't there. in my family we have this thing my dad used to say. he worked away for most of my life, but he told us no matter where he was or what he was doing if we needed him he'd be there. he would "drag up" and come to our aid. i have no doubt in my mind of this, my father's unconditional love. he is gone now, and my family walks on in this principle. family means no matter what, you are there. family are the people you would want beside you in a fight or trying circumstance. family is love. i am blessed because i have love.
i had incredible friends growing up, we grew up in Coudersport Pennsylvania (aka Tiny Town, USA). my first experience of the outside world other than vacationing was college, I was dual enrolled and attended summer semester @ Yale University. To go from the mountains to the city was an experience I will never forget. it was that first time on my own where "i" was sculpted. i was 16 and grown in ways most adults were, not to say i didn't hold immaturity, i still do, but when you are in college and there is no one but you and Jesus to work out your messes you grow up fast. after that returning to high school was almost impossible. i had tasted life and didn't know how to go back to the previous "high school" existence. i skipped out my senior year and was gone. at that point in my life things were shaky. i was in a great time of transition and didn't know much of anything, enter Bible School into the picture. i went to school in rocky mount, virginia and it was there i found myself IN GOD. when i was 17 i left Bible school and moved to flint, michigan. i lived with a dear pastor and his family and then with incredible people who became my second family. i made a life for myself learning and growing. i applied to U of M, received admission, was going to get engaged to an amazing man of God and was well on my way to a future.
friday November 7th, 2003 i got the call that changed my life. my dad, my best friend in the entire world, had cancer. cancer is a peculiar thing... some people find out they have cancer and live for years, some people a year, God heals some people.... with cancer you just never know how much time. i got 69 days with my dad, from the day he was diagnosed till the day he died. 69 of the longest and shortest days of my life. i immediately returned to Pennsylvania to be my father's primary care giver. We didn't know what this walk would be like, I out of all the siblings had the most dispensable life, i hadn't begun school yet and my life would wait. So i pressed pause with all of my heart and went to be by my fathers side. my mother had to continue working for as long as possible to keep insurance before she could take a leave. she never got the time to take it. it was over before the fight had even begun. i daily watched my father die and for a long time i couldn't recover. i shut down for what seemed like a long time. after that everything went. The man i was going to spend my life fell for someone else in those 69 days. my life at that point seemed over.
after i returned to michigan it wasn't the same. i came back to pennsylvania and lost months. finally i awoke in august of 2004. i packed the car and drove to lakeland, fl. Southeastern University. i had applied for early admission in high school and gotten accepted. i called and asked if my acceptance was still on file. they said yes, i packed the car. i was a transfer student, but transferred no credits in, i scrapped life before that, and began a fresh start. i successfully completed my freshman year. it was in this time i found newness of life. it was an awakening. new friends. fresh air... BREATHING... my second semester i began as a LINC (leader in community, asst. RA) Sophomore year continued in student development and life, and had a genuine life, i was owned by the comm dept, did acting, PR/journalism, English, and Pre-law.... life was full and good :) around thanksgiving i was sitting in chapel looking at the ceiling. The Lord said I wouldn't be there next semester. it was a peculiar thing to hear, however i knew it was Jesus. I began frantically looking for a school, i knew i wanted east coast, and Christian, past that i was clueless. i called my mom to tell her it was time to move again and she was disheartened. she wanted me to just stay somewhere for longer than a year, to finish something. it wasn't that i didn't want to finish, i just knew God said i wouldn't be there next semester. she asked me to be obedient to her, and just to stay and finish sophomore year. i told her against what i knew was right, "okay". i had to be obedient though over Christmas break i had applied to a school called Regent University. I prayed and left it in God's hands. January rolled around, this first week of classes began, and i ended up in the hospital. looong story short. I was moved back to Pennsylvania with my belongings by the first week of February. I landed a rare neurological disorder called cluster headaches. doesn't sound scary, but it is. so i ended up not being scrapping the semester trying to get the disorder under control. i received my acceptance to regent, i began taking online classes and told my mom and packed the car again. this time it was a year ago to virginia beach and regent university.in the fall i began on campus and this brings us up to about now.
the things that have unfolded during the past year have been good, and bad, and inbetween. they have been God. i have lost relationships, gained them and am yet again at a time of transition. one week from today i am moving, but this time only to an apartment a little further away from my current residence. i am still breathing. during the past year i have come to terms with a lot. i have learned much about the person i am and the person i am growing to be. i went through the year having a person, having a best friend, someone that was more like a sister than anything, and have lost them. i wish the world understood unconditional love.... i wish we saved the judging for God... i wish when someone said they loved you, they would mean it... i wish we would consider our words more carefully... i wish people understood communication and how necessary it is. this wishing leaves me with hope. hope for the future, cultivating relationship in my home life, at school. cultivating the love of Christ and giving it to the world. thinking about the truly important things.
Monday, May 7, 2007
Chronicles of Narnia
This starts off really rough, but hang in there...
This was a random video turned funny.
This was a random video turned funny.
Saturday, May 5, 2007
I could no sooner choose a favorite star in the heavens....
It's time to talk, and I do mean really get down to it.
As long as I'm sharing my life, I may as well share it.
What are we talking about today? Well ladies and gents, today it's all about the first kiss.
We all know from watching the ever popular Hitch:
8-out of 10 women believe the first kiss will tell them everything they need to know about a relationship... If the first kiss is a let down, it's difficult to recover. I don't know if it matters at all to men, but women want *sparks*...
The American Heritage dictionary defines these kind of sparks as:
-A short pulse or flow of electric current
-A vital, animating, or activating factor
-Anything that activates or stimulates; inspiration or catalyst.
Let's talk about my most recent "first kiss". Where there sparks? I was speechless. If Hitches theory is correct what does this first kiss tell me? This is different from anything I have experienced before.... And there will be surprises... "Sarah is lost in dreamy thoughts, and will return to the computer in a moment..."
Okay I'm back... So what does that kiss tell me, there is definite potential....
My mind and actual matters address other circumstances, but oh if we could all live like the movies....
To Quote another little something from Hitch:
Basic Principles - no woman wakes up saying "God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!" Now, she might say "This is a really bad time for me," or something like "I just need some space," or my personal favorite "I'm really into my career right now." You believe that? Neither does she. You know why? 'Cause she's lying to you, that's why. You understand me? Lying! It's not a bad time for her. She doesn't need any space. And she may be into her career, but what she's really saying is "Uh, get away from me now," or possibly "Try harder, stupid," but which one is it? 60% of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; 30% is your tone, so that means 90% of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth. Of course she's going to lie to you! She's a nice person! She doesn't want to hurt your feelings! What else she going to say? She doesn't even know you... yet. Luckily, the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it, and that's where *Jesus* comes in. Basic Principles - no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet; he just needs the right broom. -Good luck ;)
As long as I'm sharing my life, I may as well share it.
What are we talking about today? Well ladies and gents, today it's all about the first kiss.
We all know from watching the ever popular Hitch:
8-out of 10 women believe the first kiss will tell them everything they need to know about a relationship... If the first kiss is a let down, it's difficult to recover. I don't know if it matters at all to men, but women want *sparks*...
The American Heritage dictionary defines these kind of sparks as:
-A short pulse or flow of electric current
-A vital, animating, or activating factor
-Anything that activates or stimulates; inspiration or catalyst.
Let's talk about my most recent "first kiss". Where there sparks? I was speechless. If Hitches theory is correct what does this first kiss tell me? This is different from anything I have experienced before.... And there will be surprises... "Sarah is lost in dreamy thoughts, and will return to the computer in a moment..."
Okay I'm back... So what does that kiss tell me, there is definite potential....
My mind and actual matters address other circumstances, but oh if we could all live like the movies....
To Quote another little something from Hitch:
Basic Principles - no woman wakes up saying "God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!" Now, she might say "This is a really bad time for me," or something like "I just need some space," or my personal favorite "I'm really into my career right now." You believe that? Neither does she. You know why? 'Cause she's lying to you, that's why. You understand me? Lying! It's not a bad time for her. She doesn't need any space. And she may be into her career, but what she's really saying is "Uh, get away from me now," or possibly "Try harder, stupid," but which one is it? 60% of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; 30% is your tone, so that means 90% of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth. Of course she's going to lie to you! She's a nice person! She doesn't want to hurt your feelings! What else she going to say? She doesn't even know you... yet. Luckily, the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it, and that's where *Jesus* comes in. Basic Principles - no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet; he just needs the right broom. -Good luck ;)
Friday, May 4, 2007
WOW.....
If you thought you wanted to be my friend after this weekend you are most definatley
going to change your mind. I AM SUCH A NERD. So guys we officially found you tube and joined the hundreds of thousands of users posting their lives. My user name is Luvlyb33 we are up to 6 videos. We being the roomates... Such nerds :) Ahh... So this is the last video i'm going to post on here. If you want to see them you can play on my facebook or youtube. The things we do in procrastination and caffeine...So tonight has lots of fun in store... more work on the "paper" and then exercise and then some sleep and then lunch and a movie with my darling Alyssa at cinema cafe watching the Spider man 3. It's going to be a productive day. Notice how night turned into the next day .....
P.S.
Everyone please pray for me as I am looking for a place to live. I may have found a place and will know if I got it (hopefully by Monday at the latest) If not the search is on. Jesus is going to help me and I'll be moving to somewhere on June 1st :) I trust in him.
going to change your mind. I AM SUCH A NERD. So guys we officially found you tube and joined the hundreds of thousands of users posting their lives. My user name is Luvlyb33 we are up to 6 videos. We being the roomates... Such nerds :) Ahh... So this is the last video i'm going to post on here. If you want to see them you can play on my facebook or youtube. The things we do in procrastination and caffeine...So tonight has lots of fun in store... more work on the "paper" and then exercise and then some sleep and then lunch and a movie with my darling Alyssa at cinema cafe watching the Spider man 3. It's going to be a productive day. Notice how night turned into the next day .....
P.S.
Everyone please pray for me as I am looking for a place to live. I may have found a place and will know if I got it (hopefully by Monday at the latest) If not the search is on. Jesus is going to help me and I'll be moving to somewhere on June 1st :) I trust in him.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Monday, April 30, 2007
To have and to hold, for better or for worse....
Hello everyone out there in internet world! We need a hott topic to discuss. Democrats? Abortion? Pat Robertson’s political comments? JUST KIDDING. I don’t want to get beat up after class tomorrow night! Let’s talk about weddings. Now please understand THIS is just my opinion, if that many people disagree we can hold a public trial on the make shift gallows that will surely be built by the 3 million dollar fountain on campus. So this is me venting. We were discussing weddings around the lunch table at work today. I just need to let everyone know. Carol, last name to remain nameless is the “bomb”. I adore when Jesus gives you amazing people to love. Well we were discussing weddings.
I DON’T CARE ABOUT A WEDDING. If there was a most likely to elope “superlative” in high school it would have been mine for sure. The one time I came close to debating getting married the conversation went a little something like this:
Satan as we formerly call the ex: I wanna have ten thousand of your babies, wife, blah blah blah.
Me: Is a wedding important to you? Like in a church with your family?
Satan: YES! I want to get married in a church with my family and have a big wedding.
Me: Fine, when you pick a date I’ll get a dress and show up, the rest is TOTALLY up to you.
Why do people feel the need to stress out about things like centerpieces and napkins? I swear if you see some brides their worlds are ending!
Me: What’s wrong hunnie?
Fake bride: (hyperventilating) the napkins can’t come in fresh peach they are coming in matte peach and they aren’t gonna match anything!!!
Me: Oh hunnie (while thinking in my head, there are two different colors of peach?)
I just don’t get it. Long ago my best friend Daphne knew that if it came to me walking down an aisle, she and my sisters were going to have to do most of it.
When you get to spend the rest of your life with an amazing man of God and could drop cash on something like a car, or a down payment on a house, why spend it on a day? I just don’t see the need to stress and plan and plan and stress. In the end who cares what color the napkins are?It’s really about the “I do’s” and the kiss anyway….
I DON’T CARE ABOUT A WEDDING. If there was a most likely to elope “superlative” in high school it would have been mine for sure. The one time I came close to debating getting married the conversation went a little something like this:
Satan as we formerly call the ex: I wanna have ten thousand of your babies, wife, blah blah blah.
Me: Is a wedding important to you? Like in a church with your family?
Satan: YES! I want to get married in a church with my family and have a big wedding.
Me: Fine, when you pick a date I’ll get a dress and show up, the rest is TOTALLY up to you.
Why do people feel the need to stress out about things like centerpieces and napkins? I swear if you see some brides their worlds are ending!
Me: What’s wrong hunnie?
Fake bride: (hyperventilating) the napkins can’t come in fresh peach they are coming in matte peach and they aren’t gonna match anything!!!
Me: Oh hunnie (while thinking in my head, there are two different colors of peach?)
I just don’t get it. Long ago my best friend Daphne knew that if it came to me walking down an aisle, she and my sisters were going to have to do most of it.
When you get to spend the rest of your life with an amazing man of God and could drop cash on something like a car, or a down payment on a house, why spend it on a day? I just don’t see the need to stress and plan and plan and stress. In the end who cares what color the napkins are?It’s really about the “I do’s” and the kiss anyway….
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Romans 14:19 (Read it :)
I decided my goal for the day was to find purpose in my day. If there is no purpose in a day you’re just going to work and making it through the day and going to sleep and getting up and doing it all over again the next day…I have purpose in life. That is our common goal, to save souls for the kingdom…That is no small task, that is actually huge, gargantuan even! (Ten point word score for me) We spend our lives devoted to God, living for Him and sharing the gospel with others, but I hope I’m not alone in saying this some days it doesn’t seem like enough. It might be selfish, I don’t know? It might be terribly wrong to say? Maybe I’m not doing enough…okay, most probably I’m not doing enough… However I feel as if there has to be more in a day. SO…I set out to accomplish. “Daily I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Jesus our Lord…” What exactly is my calling? Leave it to Jesus to shake things up a bit. I’m not sure how everyone feels about prophecy, so take my words however you choose and allow God to speak to you. Growing up I have gotten numerous words about my future. “My daughter, you will travel the waters, you will speak into the ears of the leaders of nations and nations will change. You will bring peace between races.” At work today I received a phone call and a woman began praying for me on the phone. During her praying she in a very meek spirit began to (please excuse my “Christianese”) read my mail, and prophecy to me as she prayed. She spoke “You will travel the oceans and speak to the leaders of the nations. God will create opportunity. You will never lack for words but God will supply your words and teach you what to do….(She spoke of a current situation going on with my roommates where much dissention is found) I am bringing peace to your living situation. You don’t have to worry about it because I am going to bring peace in your home…(She spoke of the loss of my father) God is going to heal your heart from the loss of your father, God says he takes care of the widows and the orphans, you will not lack for any good thing...The woman continued on about my future mate (I don’t like that word)… well anyway, she spoke about my current man situation and my future man situation and she continued for a good ten minutes just being dead on! Afterwards she had to tell me to take 3 deep breaths. And then I went to fake chapel (which is a completely different situation in itself) but at fake chapel we prayed and there was a release… It’s that weight you can physically feel lift off your shoulders. You feel the dark and twistys in your tummy unwind and you feel a little bit lighter….That is when you really feel at peace. No matter what the situation’s look like around you it doesn’t matter because you place your trust in God’s hands. So did I find purpose in my day? Absolutely…. As my mom says, to be the change in someone’s day. To sow in tears and to reap in joy…. To be a peacemaker, that is today’s purpose. The key? New purpose for each day…
Monday, April 16, 2007
my mom
Jesus is # 1, but my mom is completely a close second. I don’t think I could express to you all how amazing my mom is. We have those people who love and support us, but then there are the people who go above and beyond. My favorite thing about my mom? She prays for me. We are connected in a way that goes beyond. She just knows things, not because I tell her, but because she senses things. When I have a bad day, she knows. When I can’t sleep, she knows. Back in the day when I was running around doing the crazy things Jesus would wake her up with dreams about what I was doing. She knew, but she loved me unconditionally and prayed for me, and today I am who I am because of her. My mother has always encouraged me to be an individual and supported me breaking the mold. She loves me for my differences and adores me for my broken edges… As a parent she’s a fixer, but as a friend she’s learning to be more of a listener. She trusts in me and more importantly in God for my future. Beyond all of those things she’s mad cool. What kind of mom fights over the remote because I’m want C-Span and she wants pimp my ride? She’s coming to town this week, for a family wedding and to get some new tattoos (not joking about the tattoos…) If you see us around campus make sure to say hello...
Friday, March 30, 2007
some family history---
this was from a paper, but it's about me and my background so i thought i would post it....
Sarah Christina Williams is my given name. Williams, my last name, is the first descriptor of my background and heritage. Joseph Monroe Williams, my father was the one to explain to me where our name came from, though the Williams surname is
Saturday, March 24, 2007
i knew i was going to have to bear my soul someday...here ya go.
I have always belonged to you and in the dead of night when the world rises up against me and storms whisper against my window it is you that calms the beating of my ever racing heart. The only knowledge of who I am comes from you gently teaching me your ways. Patience never falters, love never fails, as I so desperately seek fulfillment. You hold my gaze, you acknowledge me, and we begin again. When I lose focus you hold me tight. You never let me walk away… You know me like no other, you see through the facades, and still you choose me. So I choose you, I love you, for this gentle leading I tell you I am yours.
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